We'll Be Fine...

I saw you guys saying you want me to update more ;p and sorry about that by the way! School's been kicking my ass but fall break is coming up soon and i'll be able to get back into the groove of things. I feel like this chapter is short, and I don't like it :/ bleh. Sorry. Anyways, here's your chapter guys! xx

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I opened my eyes rolling over hoping to be met by SB's body, but no. I hate when he does that shit.

"Get up."

"Excuse me?" I turned my head looking in the direction of his bathroom seeing him walking out.

"The Vaks and them went to get breakfast. They should be back soon." I turned my head back to the other side watching him go through his drawers getting out clothes for him. "I had to tell Candi's nosy ass you wasn't feeling well when she asked why we wasn't going." he said as he put on his clothes before walking over to me. He sat down on the bed staring at me.

"What?"

"Nothing."

"Mhmm." I dropped my head back down to my pillow. Damn. I'm still worn out from last ni-well, this morning. I giggled quietly and ofcourse Safaree and them supersonic ears heard me.

"What's so funny?"

"Can I think? All up in my business."

"I'm 'bout to be all up in ya business if you don't put some clothes on." I turned over onto my back and he smiled looking over my body before he looked back up into my eyes.

"Since you're offering, I could go for some morning head right now." I smirked.

"I'm sure you could. But you don't want a round three." I dropped my smile and he smirked.

"And you know this how?"

"Cause round 2 in the shower you couldn't handle it." he said getting up from the bed. I pulled the covers up over my body and laid there staring at him as I watched him move around the room cleaning up. "If the shower wasn't  on they would've heard you." he tossed me one of his t-shirts. "I guess I do a body good, huh?"

"Shut up, Safaree." I sat up and put on the t-shirt he tossed me dropping it down over my body. I moved my hair out of my face and tossed it up into a messy bun. "You wasn't THAT good." I said trying to keep a straight face as I climbed out of his bed.

"Liar."

"Am I?" I smiled as he walked up closer on me and wrapped an arm around me. He smells so damn good when he gets out of the shower.

"Yeah."

"Move, Safaree." I put my hand on his chest trying to push him back but he only tightened his grip. I looked up directly in his eyes. "Move." We had a mini stare down before I pecked his lips. "Now move." he slapped my ass and let me go. "I can't stand you sometimes." I said right before I walked in his bathroom and started the shower.


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"So where were you this morning?"

Oh, here we go. I rolled my eyes and avoided eye contact. "I wasn't feeling good."

"Right."

"Yup." I continued avoiding her eyes and replied to the emails from Manny. He always be telling me last minute shit.

"You seem fine now."

"I know how to pull it together." I raised my head up from the phone and looked over towards the door. "Are you guys ready yet?!" before I could finish the Vaks and Safaree came walking out of the door.

"LET'S GO!" Rex yelled. Him and that thick ass haitian accent. I rolled my eyes and we all got up to head out.

I really hate club appearances and I've had a lot of these lately. Candi, Lauren, and the Vaks were up in the balcony area while me and SB were down here mingling and talking with all the fans. This club appearance was a little more different than the normal ones though. It was kind of like a meet & greet. I was loving it. Until I looked over and seen SB and some random bitch being too friendly with each other. The irony in his actions right now. I smiled at one of my fans I was talking to, hugging them before they turned to walk off. I stroked my hair and looked around at nothing in particular, nodding my head to the beat. I wanted to go say something to SB, but I'm not one to cause a scene in public letting it interfere with my business. But it was pissing me off. It's like we can never just be civil for longer than a week. I looked back in his direction when I seen him lean down to give her a hug as she whispered something in his ear. My jaw dropped and I immediately picked it back up trying to not to be so obvious. I looked away trying to calm myself but I couldn't for some reason. The way he acts when I am even close with another person and he does this shit.

I felt a hand on my arm and turned. I smiled at this person showing up at the perfect time. I'm guessing he was a fan of mine. Well, obviously. He was cute too, not my type, but cute. Lightskin, looked around 25 or 26. Had the sexiest arms too. Damn. Perfect opportunity to play with SB.

"Hi babe, what's your name?" I placed my hand on his arm muscles. He smiled at me and placed his hand on my lower back. I looked up to see one of my bodyguards trying to rush over before I waved them off. Not everyone is trying to hurt me, damn.

"Quez. Yo, congrats Nicki. Shout out to you, you're reppin big for the females out there."

"Well, thank you my baby." he smiled and ran his hands over his goatee causing me to smile. Aw, he does have a cute smile too. Nice teeth.

"So, what do you? What's your job?"

"I'm a bartender."

"Oh! Do you have a girlfriend?"

He pulled me closer a little to speak in my ear over the loud music. "You asking me on a date, Ms. Minaj?"

"Boy!" I stepped back a little with a slight laugh. You give someone an inch and they take the whole damn ruler. "No. I was asking so I can holla at her." I winked and smirked and by the look on his face he had know problem with that. Men are such pigs.

"Oh, alright. That's nice." he said nodding anxiously like it was really about to happen. "You think I could get in on that?" Not even on my worst day, boo.

"Not even a slight chance." I said with a smirk.

"Wow. You really just gon shut me down like that?"

"You'll be okay." I said giggling and rubbing his arm.

"Ah, man. I gotta go though, I just wanted to let you know I think you're dope...and hella sexy." I laughed.

"Well, thank you. You're not too bad yourself." he put on a cocky smirk. You can't tell niggas shit.

"It was a honor to meet you." he held his arms out for a hug and I embraced it. Inhaling his Gucci cologne my thoughts immediately went to Safaree. I leaned out of the hug and held my smile long enough for him to walk off and as soon I turned my head I see Safaree giving me a look. Not THE look, but the other look. He was pissed. Oh, a dose of his own medicine and he can't take? Interesting. I smiled as I seen him making his way over to me with a displeased look. He grabbed hold of my arm gentley and leaned down to talk in my ear.

"What was that?" Ha! Really? I leaned closer to him speaking softly but so I could be heard but not by everyone else who was around.

"If I cared I could've asked you the exact same thing a second ago." I heard him suck his teeth. "Now let go of me."

"You always playin' games."

"We're not about to do this here. Seriously, SB. Now let me go." he released my arm and I rolled my eyes at him before putting on a fake slight smile.

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Safaree keeps huffing and puffing over in the corner and shit. This driver is going slow. And Candi, Lauren, and the Vaks are staying at a hotel. They said they knew something would happen between me and SB and planned ahead. Smh. Are we really that screwed up? I hate that this little ass thing that's not even a big deal came between our time with them because I missed them so much. I sighed and stared at my phone screen. I sent Candi and Lauren a group message apologizing to them and for them to call me in the morning. I just want to go in, shower, and go to sleep, but I know that's not how it's about to go down. We pulled up to the house and I sighed of relief, making my way out of the car at a fast pace. I walked up to the door and stuck my key in pushing the door open. I pulled the key out and cracked the door enough for SB who was still behind. I walked over to the couch and sat down to take off my heels. I placed them on the floor and got up heading to my room when I seen SB enter the house.

"Nic."

"I don't want to do this, SB." I kept my focus on getting to my room and in the shower as I walked down the hall unbuttoning my jeans.

"That's your problem now, Nicki."

What? I see he's clearly not going to let this go.

"Alright, Safaree." I turned into my room as he followed behind me. Consistent ass.

"You always being extra with niggas. Fuck is up with that?"

"Nothing, Safaree."

"If it's nothing why you keep doing it?"

I stopped at turned around looking him in the face. "Why do you keep questioning me like I'm doing something wrong? I'm an entertainer, SB. I'm doing my job." I rolled my eyes and turned back around stepping into my closet. I walked over to my pajama section that I never put to use until I have nights like these.

"You think it's cool to just be flirting with niggas in front of me?"

I grabbed some sweats and tanktop and turned to look at him. "You thought it was okay to be all over some bitch in front of me." I walked past him and sat my clothes down on my bed. I walked over to my dresser and began taking off my jewelry.

"So you did it because you seen me talkin to another girl?" I ignored his question and kept at it taking off my bangles. I regret wearing too many of these during moments like this.

"Nicki." I heard movement at the bed and assumed he sat down. I took off my necklace and placed inside the jewelry box that I bought it in and closed it, moving it to the side.

"Seriously, Nic." I huffed and threw my head back. He never lets shit go. He alwaaaaaaays wants to talk about it, and I don't. Every time we talk it blows up into something more and I don't feel like doing this tonight.

"Seriously, SB. Can this wait until in the morning? Seriously..." I looked up through the mirror and our eyes connected. I stared him down trying to let him know that I was in no mood to argue with him but he wasn't getting the hint.

"This is what's wrong with us now. You don't never wanna talk about shit."

"So why you still try to get me to talk is beyond me."

"Cause you always playin games with me. Straight up."

"Safaree, all I did was TALK to a fan. That's it. YOU were the one all hugged up with some random bitch and I could give a fuck less. Now are we done here?"

"You're acting."

"Acting like what, Safaree?" I said with an attitude. Gosh, I wish he would just let it the fuck go. I took off the jacket I was wearing and tossed it towards the bed.

"Acting like you don't care."

"Don't tell me what I'M doing, SB. I don't go telling you about yourself, so don't tell me." I walked past the bed wiggling out of the jeans I had on and stopped in the bathroom taking them completely off.

"This is why we-"

I cut him off before he could even finish. "This is EXACTLY why WE need to stop this. You get mad over the LITTLEST shit! We can't keep this up, Safaree. It's done." I couldn't even believe the words that just came out of my mouth. My heart began to race but my body was still calm in a way. I heard him getting up from the bed and make his way to the bathroom door. I felt his presence in the doorway and avoided looking in his direction and stared at the shower.

"Yo are you serious?"

I nodded my head not sure of what to say still not looking in his direction. My mind was saying one thing and my heart was definitely saying another. I could see out of the corner of my eyes his body tensing up. He sighed and leaned on the door with his hands over his face. I bit my bottom lip before I took off my shirt.

He dropped his hands from his face. "Yo, you seriously feel like that over this?"

I crossed my arms and looked down, speaking in a low voice. "I have for a while." What the hell am I doing right now?

"Nicki."

"No." I shook my head and held up my hand. "Just go, please."

He backed up from the doorway and I slowly began pushing the door closed as I looked over his face and body language when he turned away from me. I noticed the hurt but, fuck. I'm hurt. WE'RE hurt. Our friendship is hurt. The way this has been going lately is not good. We're okay for like a week and then we're back at it. I want to stop before it gets too far but am I even making the right decision? I sighed taking off my bra and thongs and sliding into the shower. My emotions began to take over and I wanted to cry. How did this little thing come to this? How did I even get the balls to just tell Safaree those words? Hell, I don't even know if I mean them. Tears began to burn at my eyes as regret began to take over my mind. I feel like shit is only going to get worse from here.